For a long time, I have been longing for a home. A proper home, a home filled with love and acceptance not a home with a physical construction of any size.
I come from a family where my father is a very traditional china man and absent from home for more than 20 years due to his work at outstation . Therefore, earthly home has disappointed me, so to speak.
In 2004 October, while I was at the end of my own way of my life. A friend of mine introduces me a new way and hence, I found my WAY to my heavenly home. In John 14.6, Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. John 3.16, For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. And John 10.10, The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
Since, I have no way to go, I decided to try out this WAY, the only way I have.
Even though I have found the way, yet I do not know exactly what to expect from the new way or my right standing or my benefit so to speak in my new found home. So, I still looking around, try my own few ways or lucks along the way. And of course I ended up in a very miserably position most of the time. Simply because i did not sit under a pure teaching during my very early time of Christian life. That is why choosing a right church to go is very important for all of us Christian. But, coming to this church is definitely a way to go. Amen!
In 2006, i get married. For once, i finally have my own home. Even i have the whole world as my foes but i got my wife, my God that is enough for me. Me and my wife, we love each other very much. In 2007,our son, yen how was born. I am overwhelmed. I am over cloud 9. My life then was heaven on earth. Guys, if you love your wife, protect her, sayang her, she really can give you a life of heaven on earth. Otherwise, …
So, even I get hold of Grace teaching of Ps Prince in 2005, and attended NCC in between 2007-2008. However, I still unable to walk in the blessing of Abraham and most of the time I still asking God why? What’s wrong? How? What to do next? What did I get wrong? What’s wrong with me? I was looking at myself on what i can do on my situation. But, in fact, accepting Christ is no more about yourself but it is all about HIM, what He had done in your situation. Believe me, He can do all things for us. because He cried out, It is Finished! on the cross. and to do that, you have to let go and Let God!
Anyway, to make the matter worst, my wife passed away in 2008 together with our daughter in her womb cos of cancer during her pregnancy. I crashed, my whole world collapsed. I am a dead man walking on earth at that time.
But God is gracious, I don’t know how but somehow I am able to live until today.
Only after coming back from JB at end of last year, I decided to come to look see look see what this SIB Grace is all about. One of the churches that I seriously wanted to attend since 2005. Another one is NCC.
It is here SIB Grace, through the guidance of the grace teachings in the Chinese service, God started to open up my eyes and slowly lead me to see the world by using my heart.
The 2nd half of 2010 is truly a blessing for me because finally I found my HOME. And walk firmly in the path of righteousness and finally assured of who I am in Christ!
All the while, I know the Gospel of Grace with my head only and now I embrace HIM with my heart! And when Jesus cried out, It is finished. I finally believe in my heart that I am home. As Bible said in 1 Corinthians 3:16, Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in your midst? And Romans 5.17, For if, by the trespass of the one man, death reigned through that one man, how much more will those who receive God’s abundant provision of grace and of the gift of righteousness reign in life through the one man, Jesus Christ.
I am home. Father God is with me, Christ Jesus is with me, Holy Spirit is with me because my body is the
Not only that, surely I have also understand what is the will, the heart of my Father God. His heart is to reconcile with me, he is looking around for me and providing a Way, Jesus, in order to reunion with me!!(Just like the shepherd who loss one sheep and the prodigal son’s father) More than that, He want me whole, Healed, (1 peter 2.14), He want to prosper me financially, (2 Co 8.9) and most importantly he want me to have His peace, shalom – perfect peace.
Through that, my more than 20 years addiction to sex has been completely set free couple months ago. My relationship with my parent and brother is improving. I have forgiven my parent. My skin problem is getting better and better everyday and the frequency of attack has become lesser. And I am very sure that it will totally disappeared in days to come. Financially, I have no lack and I will be only getting restfully increased with days goes by. Emotionally, I have been settling very well with my dual role as both father and mother with my prince Yen How. I am not desperately looking for a new wife and even I’m not in the hurry at all. And you know when you not in the hurry, u get to choose the best from the pond! Hahaha (ho liaw tim teh as the hokkien says!!) But when you says, bo hu hey ya ho! God bless you brethren! you know what i mean ?
Now. I actually expecting great things coming in my way everyday and I am counting it everyday too. As Jesus said, those who asked you to walk a mile for him, walked him another mile.(it’s pay back time devil) And whatever I have lost, God promised he is restoring me 7 times! Of cos I hope it is not 7 wifes !! Amen!!
And Finally, I am home in God’s kingdom and in SIB Grace, I called my home church. Thank you Jesus!
This is the meaning of HOME COIMG!
Praised the Lord! Amen !
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