SIN; My Sin

I'm a Christian, a normal yet simple human and I have sinned.

Before accepted Christ, I'm more to a free thinker. It's like every religious is teaching people to be good.

However, after get to know about christainity and found out Christ is not a religious but a relationship. A relationship between Father in Heaven and son on earth. I am the son, His beloved son. Jesus also said I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. So, I have made up my mind and follow Jesus.

Back to Sin, my sinful act. I have a lot of bad habits, sinful lifestyle before I believe in Jesus. After become His beloved son, most of the bad habits and lifestyle have been disappeared or transformed just like that. It's like suddenly you realised that you have no appetite for something you crave to do before eg. smoking or drinking and etc..

Unfortunately, not all were being wash clean yet. Left behind some like saying vulgar words and watching pornographic.

Lately, I have chance to enjoy my access to internet privitely. (I used to have internet access but due to moving around often until recently only applied for a connection). Happen that i surfed and click on some pornographic links. Bingo! i got stucked inside for awhile there. Of course I know it is not right and blar blar blar ..

Then I realised that it is not Jesus don't want to help clean up these left over. But it is myself that don't want to let go. Although, I did not purposely go and looks for it but whenever there is a "accidental oportunity" I really have hard time to resist it. Yes, I prayed. But still not working, again because I still holding on it.

So, the mystery solved and I have decided to let go all these vulgar words and pornographic thing before it become another dissater. Let Jesus handle the cleanse process. I know not long after this, I will be set free from these bondage.

Question: you had sinned, will you lost your salvation?

Answer: no way.

For all my sins have been punished on Jesus by hanging on the cross. He has exchanged his righteousness with my past, now and future sins.

For Jesus says But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

God is a good God, He has sacrificed His Son to save us. He will not forsake us just because we have sinned. Otherwise, Jesus won't have to suffer on the cross. For He know our weaknesses and most of the time we can't help ourselves. We need HIM.

Therefore, everytime we sin we need to confess our righteousness in Christ and remenber God is forgive us. When the more we believe that we are forgive and understand how great is the love of our Father in Heaven. how much more will we want to hurt someone who love us some much?

That's what I do now. I want to stop hurting my Daddy God.

Daddy God, I love you because you first love me.