For many years and most of the time, I have started
something and abandon it half way or sometime not even half way. A lot of
energy, effort and money have been wasted for the sake of “I want to do
something to replace what I did now”.
Recently, again I eagerly started to build a new income
source trying to replace my current income or so called switching the career
path. After a month, I totally stop exploring the new green pasture. The train has lost it steam to move forward.
Then I realized that all these failure were due to my focus.
The Lord begins to reveal to me that my focus all these while was on FEAR. Fear
drives me to do something that I don’t like. And you won’t have any passion to
something you don’t like. It ended up a lot of excuses being reason for the
failure. It’s always other people or other issue to cause me unable to proceed.
Never once was due to myself like Martha excused of Jesus and her sister, Mary
on Jesus visit. But Martha was
distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, “Lord, do You
not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help
me.” (Luke 10:40 NKJV)
And what strikes my mind was the reply of Jesus. This is
what exactly the one thing that I need to focus. And Jesus answered and said to her, “Martha, Martha, you are
worried and troubled about many things. 42 But one thing is needed, and Mary has
chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her.”
(Luke 10:41-42 NKJV)
Fear
makes us trouble of many things and these many things are often not what we
want or like to do. Thus, we complaint and blamed. When we focus on one thing
needful like Mary, we received our Savior love and There is no fear in love; but perfect love
casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been
made perfect in love (1 John 4:18 NKJV). With this assurance of the perfect love
of our Lord, we can lives victoriously because Jesus is Lord (Romans 10:9 NIV)
and The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want! (Psalms 23:1 NKJV)
